Howdy! Once again, I return to discuss world politics, economics and awww, hell, you know that’s not going to happen. BOOOOORING! Can’t change what is going on in the world, so we can talk about other things….
Let’s see. Since my last post, the world has gone to crap, people are still fighting and the threats just change names and nations. Same shit, different day, same old song and dance. Ya know?? The entitlement mentality is running rampant and our country is now circling the drain. I am not shocked. People have been slowly thinking that the state should take care of them, which in cases, is close to socialism/communism. The old joke was: Capitalism isn’t working, Socialism is working. We have more and more people on welfare, living on government subsidies and getting free “Obama phones”, food stamps and money. So sad. When I was growing up, having to use food stamps was embarrassing. I admit that my family had to use them during the big Boeing shut down. That was scary enough, but now, people use them like a badge of honor. Where and when did this happen? It needs to be reversed and more people need to figure out how to bring this nation away from the drain and become what we once were, a proud and strong nation. Being a veteran, I saw despair and the depth of human sorrow off the coast of Cuba. That son of a bitch Castro did some nasty and sickening things to his people to get them to leave so that more rich people would prosper. SMH. So, so sad. I still have those images burned into my brain and I can still see the faces and the people that we picked up and helped during the Mariana’s Exodus. Like many of the service people coming back from war, those things that we saw never really goes away.
Another point is that I am now on my 4th (yea, I know, number 4? No one feels worse than I do…) divorce. How sad is that? But, ya know what? I am much happier now that she is gone. I don’t walk on egg shells, I don’t have to watch every word that I say or be careful about how I say something. I can be free with what I do, who I talk to and when I want to do something. I have pulled myself off the ground, dusted myself off, and started again. I have almost a whole new apt of things that I either bought, got for free off of Craigslist or gotten from friends. I feel really good about that. I have new tv and sound bar that beats anything she had!!! I should have listened to my heart when it told me several times to not marry this freak show. It’s true! She has a history of mental illness, paranoia, domestic violence (!) and suicidal tendencies. The last part of that I witnessed personally. I walked into the bedroom one day and found her with a gun in her mouth. I turned around, walked out of the room and figured, well, if you’re going to do it, just pull the trigger and I will clean up the mess when you’re done. I am NOT going to stop you. I figured, at that point, I was pretty much done with the insanity that was our sham of a marriage. I was told not long ago that people are put in our lives for either a reason or a season and we don’t know which it is until it happens. There is a reason for people to be in our lives, but I heard Madea say that when someone shows you who they are, BELIEVE THEM! I should have believed it the first time. I didn’t think I had any place to go but if one is resourceful enough, you DO have a place to go. It may be uncomfortable for a while, but you can get through it. When you write out a time line of your life and look at where you are, where you’ve been and where you are going, that point of being uncomfortable is just a very short period, unless you don’t have the mentality or the balls to change your situation. I am changing that one day at a time and yes, it’s uncomfortable being alone, but the alternative isn’t worth the insanity. I have come a long way since I was living with my family. I don’t take disrespect from my kids anymore. Respect starts at my front door. I have a BIG sign on the wall as you walk in the front door that says, BE NICE OR LEAVE. THANK YOU. Believe it! I am not joking. Be nice or get the hell out! I will not tolerate meanness anymore. Life is too short. I will dance in the rain, in the aisle of a store or anywhere the mood strikes. I don’t care who’s watching. Maybe it will give someone else the inspiration to do the same. The other day, I was short 5 dollars to pay a bill and a fellow veteran offered me $10 to cover the money I was short. I was feeling a bit embarrassed and he said, “Just pay it forward.” Done. I will ALWAYS pay it forward, always have, always will. I love making people smile and if I can pay it forward, then it makes it worth it. I was at a store once and this lady in front of me was having problems with her debit card and she was so frustrated that I asked the clerk what the bill was. He told me and while the lady was trying to get her card to work (Which obviously didn’t work because she didn’t have any money to cover her purchase), I just handed him the money and he told her to stop and that I had paid. She didn’t say thank you. She grabbed her groceries and damn near ran out of the store! I tried to follow her to say YOU’RE WELCOME, but there was a tiny voice in my head that told me to let her go and that she was having more problems than I even considered. Ok, but I felt good. No need for thanks. I’ve done that. Paid for a dinner that a bunch of teens that were out for prom were having. I told the waitress to tell them that it was paid for and they could save their money. I remembered those days and it made me think that if they would talk about the kindness of strangers, they would do something for someone else, either sooner or later. That’s all one has to do….just show an act of kindness and let their conscience be their guide. HOWEVER! There are jackasses that will take advantage of things like this and WE, as a people, need to weed them out and let them know that their behavior will not be tolerated. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. As I have stated in prior postings, Dr Laura has shown what true forgiveness is and even though she was publicly trashed by some jackalope, she rose above it and became a better person. I hope to follow in her footsteps and become a better man, hopefully for that next (and hopefully, last) woman that comes along that I want to spend the rest of my life with….I will end with this. I heard a man speak on Youtube that had this to say: If you are not willing to risk, then you cannot grow, if you are not willing to grow,you cannot become your best, if you cannot become your best,you canot be happy, If you cannot be happy… then what else is there?
Later on,Fellow babies!